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2008-09-22T10:25:00.002+08:00

i found out myself tat,i had start to hv feeling wif 1gal whom together wif us cum to china 4 the exchange programme. i wun state the name...bt it juz tat,i will juz wun let her been bully by others guys...n when although she say joke tat,telling mi to treat her tings...i will say..."ok...i treat u." i dun knw y...i do tis,to here...which i nvr treat tis to others gal which come 2gether wif us de. haiz..i dun knw izzit true a not...i dun knw. bt even true...i also dun bother le...cuz i knw,i nt fit to lky ani1...n also...even i fit...i also hv no mre courage in r'ship le. so i will juz let it go. even it reali hv feeling 4 her...i wun let her knw...n will juz kept it to my heart le. i knw i'm juz toturing myself. bt i'm reali hv no mre courage,no mre trust in r'ship. so i willing to get hurt by kepting it in my heart then letting her knw...then gt hurt. cuz i knw myself v.v.clearly tat,i nt fit de. FOREVER NOT FIT DE...haiz...nvm..used to it le. so juz hack care mi bahz. dun bother mi. i'm alr used to it being hurt n pain. juz let mi be bahz. although i feeling nw crying...bt i wun cry infront of others de...dun wry. i juz will b alone at the seaside...let the sea breeze blow my pblm off,when i'm bck to s'pore. so juz dun wry abt mi. i'm alrite. i learned to b mature nw le. i no mre lky last time kept tinking of silly tings le. no mre le. so dun wry abt mi bahz...ok.

i update tis pblm here...cuz tat gal knw my new blog url...so i post it here...bt i knw,no1 will c de...nvm...i expected le.

2008-08-27T00:23:00.001+08:00

hihi...i'm bck to blog...tis post is juz purely let u guys no...tis blog is no longer a private blog...cuz i will post all my pblms...in

www.bryanspf.weebly.com

tis blog will still b active...s i lazy to delete it...heeZz...

Tags replying.

2008-08-06T12:27:00.003+08:00

Tags reply for june...
Janice: quite so bahz...haiz...
Joanne: i spam u so long ago...nw then u realise...haiz...
Janice: haha...no face mehz???reali mahz...haha...my training arz...i tink u knw le bahz...
Beumon: ya lohz...hahaha...

Tags reply for July and Aug...
Janice: i knw le...thk u 4 tagging...
Weijuan: hihi...thk 4 tagging...
Rachel: u r??? aniway...thk 4 tagging.
Linda: hihi...thk 4 tagging.
"Bento Set 2": i try bahz..ok...
Jason: aniting...wat u say...i wun bother. even u say mi eml lky a girl...i also wun bother too...

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2008-08-06T00:27:00.002+08:00

haiz...i tink till tis stage,i shld told everyone truefully nw. actually...after since..i knw angela...gt stead...i hv nt been going sch...nt been attending lesson. till 2day...class avisor called mi tat,i'm in debarment list nw. haiz...i reali hv no mood to study...is lky within a week,there so many tings happen on mi...i reali tink of giving up my studies...u knw. i reali hv no mood to study,no mood to do assignment...even student council,i gt scolded by the chairman say...i nt commitment enough. angela n weijuan...although u all within 1week mke mi happen many tings...bt i nvr ever blame u all. rmb...tis sentence..."No matter hw you all treat mi,in my heart...angela is always in my jokers family list n weijuan will always my special frenz. Although,it happen so much ting n mke mi no mood to go sch...no mood to go 4 lesson n end up being debar from exam...i nvr ever blame u all or wat...cuz it my fault. i do not knw hw to put dwn tis matter till after exam. is my fault. i'm sry."

Weijuan...i kept mesg u telling u...i'm fine...bt in the fact...i'm nt. i'm still crying,still emoing...my heart still v.v.v.hurt n pain...still gt minor fever,still gt cold. bt i told u i'm fine...i'm recovering in process...is nt to let u wry abt mi. i'm sry tat i lie to u...if u hate liar,i'm hereby sincerely saying Sry to u n hpe u cn 4gv mi.

*in my 18+yrs of life...tis is the time where i gt most most hurt. it mre hurt then breaking up wif my ex last time. i reali hpe,tis wld b the last time. bt i tink will b the last time le...cuz i had promise myself...promise to god tat,i will nvr step in2 ani r'ship animre. i wun wan to lky or love ani1 animre. nw...i juz wana fill my my feealing 2wards angela n weijuan...n lock it 4ever inside. n i will still wish them happiness 4ever. juz tat i nw wana b alone 2gether wif my locked heart n spent the rest of my life... I typing tis post...i cried. bt i knw,i'm stuborn...even all my frenz...saw tis post...told mi nt to tink too much...i will juz telling them i try bt i nvr. Sry. I hv no mre confidence,no mre courage,no mre trust in r'ship...tat y i say,"i tink will b the last time le...cuz i had promise myself...promise to god tat,i will nvr step in2 ani r'ship animre". Lastly...i wana say sry to angela n weijuan...4 being part of it in ur life...cuz i knw,i'm a failure,i'm a idiot,i'm a useless person in the world. n it the most most failure cum idiot cum useless person in this world. i reali v.v.sry."
I knw there will b some1 will say mi,i'm having depression...telling mi go c doc. I wana say clearly...i DON'T HAVE depression...

2008-08-05T01:33:00.003+08:00

regard to my livejournal 1st of Aug post...i juz wana say...there something happen between mi n weijuan. bt no matter wat reali happpen between mi n her...she will still hv the admin rights of tis blog.

actually,on friday...when i reached my wrkplace..i recieve her mesg...said..."If i say,u cnnt treat mi s gf le"...when i read it...my heart totally broke dwn...n while wrking...i hv nt in the v.gd mood to wrk...n end up alot of minor cuts here n there...n also end up short $$. bt i replied her..."i knw tis ting will happen bt juz i didn't except tat it will happen so fast. bt nvm...i will respect her decision...cuz she happy..cn le. i dun mind adding mre hurt n pain on my current wound...even if reali decide u wana ignore mi...avoid mi...i dun mind. although,in my heart...i dun wana tis ting to happen...bt i knw...wat u had decided is decided...no matter hw i decline,hw i reject...also no use...de...tat y...i say...i will respect ur decision..." bt after i send tis mesg to her...i had nvr been mesg her nor recieve her mesg...until...mon morning. bt then...although,tis few week alot alot of tings happen on mi...n my heart is reali v.v.hurt n pain...bt still weijuan will still b the 2nd admin of tis blog...shw will still b my special frenz...n angela...will still b my jokers family. tis 2 fact...will 4ever change.

2008-08-03T20:22:00.003+08:00

hi everyone, tis is juz purely to let u guys knw...tis blog here will post my pblm...esp my r'ship pblm here...and will manage by mi n weijuan. although,mi n weijuan...in between,had many pblm occur on us...bt still she will still b the 2nd admin rights of tis blog...s apply,ani1 does say aniting bad abt her...will b track dwn by mi,n will handle by mi severly... and for my other blog,livejournal,will post my daily sch or wrking life...wif effect from nw.

crying

2008-07-26T23:38:00.002+08:00

2day i accompany my Jokers family to attend a talk...cuz angela wan some1 accompany her. so i agree...cuz she the person i lky. n when we reach...she haven reach...so we wait 4 awhile...n she come le...2gether wif her bf. my heart is pain...n walk...i seas break into pieces during tat time. so in the whole seldom talk...n also...s usual...pretend nth happen infront of them... n when going back...mi,her n her bf...tke the shuttle bus provided by the talk organzier...n back to yishun MRT. in the bus...she sit behind...n i sit infront...tat time,i reali wana cry...n i onli able to found my jie...to talk wif...n bck to jp...i pretend nth happen n go gv find my frenz over there...after which...i go buy beer n wine. buy 2 big cans of Gasbleg, 2cans of Jolly Sandy n 1 bottle of wines...i juz drink it straight...without stopping. n end up...i was a v.little bit drunk...after which go tke bus hme...bt when i alight,i sit at my blk downstair...n called jie...n cried during the conversation. after talk to her 4 abt 30min...we hangup n i go up le. bt when...i walk out of the lift n wana go down...i nearly fall down. nt roll dwn...bt fall dwn frm the side...which will directly till 1st level.

After i reach hme...i go bath,,,i inside my bathroom...i cry again. bt wat i can say to her is...i wish her all the best...n happiness. tat all...i dun mind getting all the hurt...the pain...and also the blame....sry...guys..

2008-07-13T17:01:00.005+08:00

Hi...everyone, if u guys happen to drop by my blog...do wana link mi
Thk...

My this blog will still be active...and u guys may wan to leave comments or tag mi either here or livejournal. which 1 let u guys feel mre comfortable...then do it..thkthk.

2008-07-07T23:24:00.002+08:00

bck NYAA chalet on thur. bt feel v.v.tired...so nw then update. erm...the chalet...cn say quite tiring bt also fun cuz i mke a few "JOKERS". Name: Angela,Jasper,Benjamin,MR. Jason(ITE staff) & Kuan Hou. but all thk to them,on tat 4days 3nights...i cn put dwn my pblm...bt after which...i hv my pblm bck again...n getting worse. hv been crying every night...bt i juz dun wish to share my pblm wif...sry. n it alr been 3mths 22days...i still haven totally put dwn yet...i cry every night...partly also cuz of tis too...haiz...nvm. erm...will update photo 4 NYAA chalet...when i recieve the photo frm teacher...

2008-07-04T22:59:00.003+08:00

I wun b blogging 4 time being...aniting,juz sms mi or call mi...or leave a mesg in my tagboard. thk...

i will update my blog when i'm feeling better. will update my NYAA tings after i feeling better. sry...guys.

2008-06-29T20:13:00.002+08:00

3mths 15days...i'm still hurt n pain. haiz...n even past few days...either no mood to eat if nt...eat v.v.less onli. haiz...i dun knw wat exactly happen on mi...bt i hpe i cn reali recover frm tis as soon as possible. haiz...n wat previous blog had mention...i had being hurt recently again...bt i still hurt n pain...n still wry tat she wld ingore mi...leave mi. bt it fate...no matter hw hurt n pain i get it still the same...wun change. so let it b..i wun care animre. s i dun believe in r'ship animre...no trust,no confidence in r'ship.

v.fast...few mre hours...i will nt b online 4 3nights...s i'm out for NYAA chalet. i will update when i bck frm chalet...n team building on fri...heeZz...v.v.fast...next week...sch reopen le..haiz...y times files so fast...it seem tat i hv no holiday sia...sobz sobz..
ok bahz...i stop here 1st...will update will i'm bck...n mean time..i will set my blog to private...so those i had invited de...juz login will do...those who wana view...juz drop mi a sms...thk..

2008-06-24T23:45:00.003+08:00

3mth 10days...when cn i reali put dwn tis past...When? i'm alr tired of hurt n pain...i haven put dwn my past....bt yet...i gt nother hurt n pain again. bt reali...s wat i mention in my previous post...if nt cuz of tat sentence...i might nt so hurt n pain,bt nvm...i will nvr blame u. cuz at the 1st place...if i dun like u...or put too much hpe on u...i wun end up so hurt n pain. so it my fault too. i'm sry. 2day i juz came bck frm my night cycling...my whole leg n hand muscle clamp...n ytd midnight...i at east coast park the bbq pit tent,i resting...i wanted to cry,bt i nvr...cuz i dun wana let ani1 knw i crying...i dun wan let ani1 knw i'm hurt n pain also dun wana let ppl knw my heart 2wards r'ship is fargile. bt nvm...wat had happen alr ahppen...i'm nw juz scared tat...if i can't gv up on her...dun put hpe on her n end up she will leave mi...can't even b frenz...i v.scared. no matter wat...even it end up cnnt b frenz...i will always wun 4get u...i will still treat u s my best frenz in my heart. n i will push all the blame n fault to myself n willing to accept ani punishment. i'm nw v.v.hurt n pain...i dun mind adding mre hurt n pain...juz tat,if i reali cnnt tahan...i will juz leave tis world...plus...i dun believe there true love animre...dun believe in r'ship animre...dun believe there sum1 who dun go 4 looks...also dun hv ani confidence 2 step in2 r'ship even i gain the trust in it. so...pls...if possible...dun mention ani ting related to r'ship...cuz it might let mi tink of my past...which i dun wan...sry...

2008-06-22T23:39:00.006+08:00

3mth 8days...i reali wana put dwn everyting...bt i still can't put dwn. when cn i reali put dwn my past n start a new r'ship. ytd...i gt reply frm 1gal tat i lky nw...n her reply said...she wana concentrate on her studies...n said...she dun wana gt in2 ani r'ship cuz she dun trust guys animre...i reali wana let her knw...i cn b wif her...4ever dwn the road...i reali wana let her knw...i willing to wait...she told mi dun put too much hpe on mi...bt i reali wana tell her...i dun mind putting much hope on u...i dun mind getting the pain n hurt,bt u knw wat reali hurt mi ytd...mesg...is tat,"dun put all hope on mi...or not we can't even b frenz". tis mesg reali hurt mi alot alot....n it mke mi...crying the whole nite...when i off9,till 5am in the morning. bt then i wake up at 8am+ again...i gt to rest/slp for 3hrs...bt nt reali slp...cuz i'm still blaming myself 4 so useless tat can't find aniting tat mke her reali hv trust on mi. i'm serious...bt...nvm. since she said tat sentence out le...if i dun force/toture myself to gv up hope on u...gv up on u...i might lose u,best frenz. i dun wana lose my frenz again...esp. best frenz. so,as ytd i alr promise u in the msn mesg...i will try myself...by forcing myself,toture myself to put dwn hpe on u. cuz i dun wana lose a frenz...although it reali v.hard 4 mi to do it...n it v.v.hurt n pain...bt wat else cn i do to remain our frenzship??? Nth...so the onli way to do it,is to force myself,toture myself to put dwn hope on u....lastly...i wana say...i'm sry. reali sry...to cause all tis trouble...i'm sry.

*if u happen to past by my blog n saw tis mesg...i'm reali sincere to say Sry to u. hpe u cn 4gv mi...i'm sry.

Last sun...(15/June)

IT Roadshow at suntec City

I mit Angela...whom i know her through NYAA meeting. I mit her at Pioneer Mall Mac at 12pm...n then going down to City Hall...to mit Ben n then go to suntec city 4 IT roadshow...i saw my pri sch frenz at there wrking...n also my sis tutor teacher. after awhile...anglea frenz said...they r reaching soon...so u mit them at LGS. after we eat finish le...they then reach...after tat...we go IT roadshow again...Angela bought 250GB External Harddisk n her frenz desmond,bought a mouse. after tat...we left the It roadshow...n angela nother frenz benjamin...wana go le...the left ben,desmond,angela n mi...then we go marinea sq de mac...discuss the NYAA chalet...after which...desmond nd to attend the wedding dinner...so left we 3...n we kept discussing...till 9+...and then we tke mrt hme... reach jurong le...i accompany angela go hme...cuz it quite late le...n nowadays jurong sercuity it nt so gd..so i accompany her hme...then i tke bus hme le...

tis the photo where benjamin took...haha...i ask him to send mi..let u all c..hw crowded there was. haha...

2008-06-21T23:59:00.002+08:00

it alr 3mths 7days...i'm still hurt n pain. i reali dun knw when will i put dwn tis burden n try to gt in2 a new r'ship...haiz...nvm. let my fate to decide. haiz...bt reali sumtime i reali tend to leave tis world...leave tis family.

juz lky 2day...my parents were quarrel the whole day...n i juz can't hlp much...i found myself is reali useless...n they quarrel till wana divorce. i dun wana to hv a broken family...i dun wana to grow up frm a perfect family to broken family...i dun wan. i knw...i can't do much when they reali divorce or quarrel...tis is y i found myself useless. i can't stop them frm quarrel...frm fighting. and also...i can't even settle my own r'ship pblm...u say...m i useless...i tired...u knw...in tis family...i can't feel ani family care...family concern. tis house here...is juz a shelter for mi to rest...tat all. i reali v.v.tired. haiz...juz lky nw..i lky 1 gal...i told her i lky here...bt she haven gv mi the ans yet...bt i still tinking of negative...s i dun knw..will she mind tat i still haven put dwn my past...or is she mind of my size n looks. i dun knw...bt no matter wat the ans...i juz hpe...if is a negative ans she wana gv mi..pls let mi knw early...dun kept it heart juz cuz dun wana hurt mi...i cn say...it does nt dun hurt mi...bt yet it hurt mi mre...s i told u b4...i dun wana my history to happen again...reali hpe u cn accompany mi go through my darkness...n our future. i reali hpe to c our future...n c our future 2gether wif u...hpe my wish will cum true...

cuz if reali gt rejected my u,i will reali dun trust there true love exist in tis world...n will hv no confidence to gt in2 ani r'ship le.

2008-06-13T21:57:00.003+08:00

2mre days to 3mth le...times files v.v.fast...haiz...bt i dun wish to say aniting. cuz it the same...still hurt...still pain. haiz...

erm...on thur...(ytd), i pon ten my last lesson...n accompany 1 of my online frenz go AMK police station...bt details...i wun say...it ppl privacy. and o ya...i was also having pratical test on tat day...n at 1st...i dun reali knw hw to knw...cuz all the steps all i 4get liao...bt end up...i'm the 1st to get checked n gt out of the rm...hahaha...pro rite...bt i'm nt proud...cuz it cher who scolded mi...n mke mi recall wat is the steps....heeZz...

basically is lky tis...o ya...every1...i wun b on9 on 23 june(night)...30june to 3july...cuz i gt SC outing(Night Cycling) and NYAA Chalet...Miss mi???contact mi...i will still b contactable...haha...bt i tink no1 will call mi...sobz...cuz no1 will visit my blog...no1 will miss mi...sobz sobz...ok la...i stop here nw...

byebye...

2008-06-10T14:55:00.002+08:00

i'm nw using wireless through my new laptop at Gek Poh KFC...haha...

times reali files v.fast...2mth 26days had past...4mth days to 3mths. although she nw had stead...n wif her stead 4 4mths plus...bt i nvr had blame her...4 nt telling mi tat she gt stead...n let mi found out myself...2mth 26day...i still the same crying n still v.v.hurt.

bt nvm...i nvr ever balme her...cuz it all my fault. haiz...nvm. 4get nit...juz hpe will faster recover...frm it...and stand up again. bt even i stand up again...i might hv lose confidence n trust in r'ship....let it be bahz...even it true...

erm...sch life...still the same...juz tat tis week...we having 3test...2day juz finish class test...tml online test...thur...pratical test. stress arz...bt nvm...after tis week...start holiday le...yeahyeah
2day test...cn say...confirm all class sure FAIL...hahaha...ok...i bck to study le...bye....

2008-06-03T10:35:00.002+08:00

time files so fast....it been 2mths 19days since i gt the hurt. in tis few mths...there alot of tings happen on mi. best frenz left mi...stress on r'ship...quarrel wif parents....alot alot of things happen. i juz dun reali mention...if reali wana knw...msn mi...bt it depend whether i wana say mahz...cuz i dun reali believe every1 knw. in face...it show tat i believe every1...everybody...chat along...bt wat reali true frenz it tat...no matter wat happen...they will still at ur side to share ur pblm wif...haiz...4get it...s i wat i said in previous post...if possible...juz let mi leave tis world...my world it full of hated,hurt...

i thank those who reali care n concern mi...thk alot...

been crying every night 4 2mth 19days.....

2008-05-31T00:09:00.002+08:00

times files v.fast...it been 2mths 16days since i gt the hurt n pain. i admit...i seem nth happen infront of everybody...everyday..esp infront of her. bt...i still gt put dwn the past...can't put dwn my burden. It seems...tis mth...i v.v.v.filrt...aniway...i gt rejected by other gal again...bt tis nt hurt s i wat i got 2mth 16days b4...

everyday...my hurt n pain increase...i kept crying everyday. i knw it no use of crying everyday...cuz the pblm is still unsovled. bt cn i nt crying a not...i ask u. i also knw it useless...bt i also hpe it cn reali mke mi 4gt the pblm..mke mi numb my hurt n pain. i'm tired...u knw.

God...if tis is my fate 4 tis life...pls...tke it away. i willing to accept all the punishment...cuz i nw feeling tat,...tis life..tis world is full of hated...full of hurt. i dun wan...i hate it...pls tke mi away...if tis is wat my fate is 4 e rest of my life...i juz dun wana continue living in a world when is full or fear,full of hated,full of hurt. i dun wan! i juz wan a simple life...i juz wan to lky a normal person...where i cn gt true love,sum1 special which willing to stand at my side...to support everthing,concern mi,caring mi...tat all....i hv nvr nvr think of getting rich...b minister....or wat...i nvr...cuz i knw my limit. if i cn...of cuz i will b happy...bt if i dun hv those thing...n u gave mi...unlimited spending of $$...a v.v.v.high power post...also no use...m i rite..every1.

so..pls...if it reali my fate 4 tis life tat i'm gotta face the world wif full of fear,full of hurt,full of hated...then pls...god...tke mi away...i willing to accept ani punishment then sufer frm tis world...

2008-05-19T23:41:00.002+08:00

i'm bck 4 blogging again...bt after tis post i will MIA again. sry guys.

juz to update...it alr 2mth 4days le since tat incident. i till nw haven totally put dwn. i nt been blogger recently cuz i been v.v.hurt...no mood to update. i realise myself is a flirt guy...i haven put dwn tat incident...bt yet lky nother gal...which happen to b my god-meimei. i hate myself...knowing tat she gt stead...bt yet still lky her. nw...it seems mi n her had nth to say...n last fri...we juz quarrel wif each other. i juz simply hate it. i dun wana quarrel wif her...bt still happen. i dun wana lose her...s part of my frenz...bt it going too. i hate it...i juz dun wana all tis too happen...bt y? Y muz it happen on mi? do i done aniting wrg??? y muz god mke fun of mi...y? i hate tis feeling. no1 cn knw hw i feel...cuz no1 had been in my shoes b4.

i nvr told ani1 my pblm last few weeks...cuz i dun wan ppl to tink i'm so patheic...u knw. i dun wan ppl knw ur pblm...n so care n concern u...i dun wan...mayb i expect too much...bt...hpe u guys will knw hw i reali feel. i been strong infront of ppl...i pretend nth happen infront of ppl...i'm tired. tis few days...i been tinking...m i so extra of living in tis world??? i'm feel so extra being living in tis world...no matter wat i does...all fail. i v.v.v.tired nw...v.v.v.hurt n pain too. cn ani1 hlp mi??? i tink no1...even my jie...also can't hlp mi much..wat abt others? haiz...nvm...

i juz wana say sry to those who reali care mi...concern mi. sry...n thk.

to those i nvr share my pblm wif...dun tink tat i nvr treat u s frenz all wat...in my heart...every1 is my frenz...bt i juz wana find sum1 who i reali reali trust n close too de...then i will say my pblm...sry. bt tis does nt mean...i does nt trust u all..ok...

2008-05-08T23:05:00.005+08:00

sry 4 late update...tis update is juz purely to let u guys to knw tat...

I wun b blogging 4 time being.

Dun ask mi y...cuz i wun say de...unless i feel lky saying...i will post it in the blog...if nt...dun cum ask mi...cuz i wun say de....

i'm tired...reali v.tired. i wana b alone 4 time being to force myself,toture myself to put dwn everyting. sry. i'm v.v.v.sry 4 wat i hv done sry. u cn push all the fault...all the blame to mi..i dun mind. i'm nw v.v.v.hurt,v.v.v.pain. bt i dun mind...u all push the fault n blame to mi. i'm juz feel v.tired...feel of leaving tis world asap...srysry.

2008-05-06T10:32:00.002+08:00

nw...10.34am....having theroy lesson...haiz...tat teacher...talk until we dun understand aniting. :o haiz....erm...quite long time nvr post le...erm...when reach hme...will update u guys again,wat happen during the past few days....

2008-04-22T21:56:00.002+08:00

nw i update mre...erm...wat i cn say is...my timetable had a major change on it. which is juz change the timetable wid other class....nw my timetable is onli thur no lesson...n might b wed no lesson too....bt frm next week onwards...it diff. le...will b...mon n fri no lesson...n tue...mayb until 12 onli...cuz...lifeskills module might b exempted...heeZz...shio horz....heeZz...n y nw..i cn smile n laugh all thk to my meimei...which aka panda meimei. heeZz. Panda meimei...if u happen to visit my blog...n c tis post...dun b shock tat y ur nick it at here...cuz i purposely put de...haha...erm...u guys will ask mi..y call her...panda meimei...i tell u guys...y...:"It...I wun tell u...u guess urself."

hahaha...bt bad it tat when she off9...i will bck to the same...crying again. juz lky juz nw...i cry again. i reali can't stop my hurt n pain...sry. i knw..it shame tat such a big guys...still cry...bt wana ask u...every human do cry rite...bt i will try to control myself...n pretend nth happen infront of other ppl. unless my panda meimei...is ard to mke mi laugh n smile.

1mth 6days le....i'm still crying,still hurt n pain.

2008-04-22T11:27:00.000+08:00

mi nw at lab...studying n doing pratical...heeZz...alrite....go hme...will update mre....gtg...

2008-04-21T21:57:00.002+08:00

1mth 5days le...i'm still the same...everynite crying. i'm still v.v.hurt n pain. although i appear cheerful...laugh alot,talk alot...joke alot...infront of other ppl. bt inside...i'm still hurt...still pain. my heart still bleeding. juz lky ytd...i mesg my jie...i even told her...even death cn settle everyting...i dun mind doing silly tings. bt nope...during holiday,when i'm alone...i'm using penkinfe...to cut myself...bt end up,i use bandage to wrap myself...cuz i realise...even i cut myself...i post it here...she wun knw. even she happen to c my post...bt i knw...she wun concern/care mi de...nvm. it ok! jie n those who concern mi...i promise..i will try to reali smile...reali cheer up. try to stand up frm tis incident...bt i cn say is...even i reali stand up...i still wun fall in2 r'ship unless...it cn mke mi change my concept. even...i reali lky sum1...i wun say...bt yet...tinking of making god-silbings.

crying 4 1mth 5days le...dun knw when will stop...sry.

2008-04-18T01:01:00.002+08:00

17/Apr/08
times seems to pass so fast...n it alr 1mth 2days since i gt reali v.v.hurts n pain. s usual,i'm still hurt,still pain. still cry every nite...even my jie...also dun knw hw to hlp mi...bt nvm. i knw,my pblm no1 wld knw hw to hlp mi...xcept myself. i promise u guys...if possible,i will stand up asap...although i'm still hurt n pain...ok? i wun b easily fall in2 r'ship animre. it v.v.hurt. i no longer believe there true love exsit in tis world. i no longer believe. i knw u guys will say tat,my miss right haven cum yet. bt i cn tell u all...even it reali cum...i no longer believe...unless it cn mke mi change my concept of nt believing in r'ship.

sch life
it alr 4th days since sch open. n my class advisor is reali sucks...everyting dun knw. when we gt our locker,dun knw. everyting dun knw...eveyting last min say. juz lky...buying books...tue told us...n by fri u muz buy. it $46. and nt $4.60. if $4.60...n muz by tis fri...i nth to say...bt it $46...wan us to rob the bank izzit. other class,same course s us...diff book price s us...reali wat hell our class advisor doing. tinking of change class or even change campus. reali F*** lohz. bt try to accept dover systems...it reali diff frm simei. canteen...worse then my sec sch canteen. mutil-purpose hall...mazim lky pri/sec sch hall. no diff. wtf...even lift...so small...campus so big...life so small. haiz...try to accept it bahz...haiz...nd to stay there 4 2yrs...sianz....haiz....

Tag Replies...
Joanne: Thk 4 concern...i will try to cheer up. ok...i try. n i knw...i been 'fan' u always...srysry...although u dun mind...bt still accept my sry...ok...
Yvonne: Link u le...
Janice: hihi..meimei. erm...i try bahz. unless u chat wid mi in msn...then i will laugh lohz...ok???heeZz...ok...aniway...hw life in japan? fun? heeZz...take much much care over there. c ya soon in s'pore...ok...in abt 2011???heeZz...take care.

2008-04-15T18:54:00.002+08:00

today...30days le...equal to 1mth le...bt today...i more sad n hurt then others day. i dun knw y. i look happy,cheerful in sch...infront of other ppl. bt no matter hw strong i pretend infront of other ppl...hw strong i tke it...i today then realise,i reali can't tke it. i today tke bus hme alone. i almost crying through out the whole jounery. i ask my frenz to accompany mi...so tat i wun tink of it n cry...bt...all busy...gt wrking or wat...nvm. it ok...i understand. so i hv no choice to go hme alone. i reach hme...after bathing...i went to bed. bt even i bathing...i was crying too. n then went to bed n rest...i cry again. even nw...i typing tis...i also crying. bt wat else cn i do? i reali v.tired. If u happen to read tis post or my blog...pls accept my sry. cuz it my fault to lky u,love u. it all my fault. "I'm sry. s to protect ur name reputation,i wun say. those who knw...pls dun say...pls...ok...treat it s i own u...pls dun say...if possible...i will repay u..ok...thk" s 4 her...if cn...i willing so lose few yrs life...to reali c her happy n gt her real happiness.

today...1mth le...i'm reali v.tired. i everyday pretend strong infront of my classmate,frenz,family,relatives n even stranger. i'm reali v.v.tired. i reali hpe i cn gt a rest...bt i can't. cuz even i rest...i will still face it either 1 of them n nd to b strong n nth happen infront of them. unless it left onli mi 1person in the conner or inside the my bedrm,then i will cry out. n if can't stop,i will toture myself to stop crying. bt aniway...gd news is tat...i finally eat sumting since ytd...cuz it wid my frenz...i hv to eat...if nt they will easily knw it. i dun wan to say out...to my frenz...cuz i dun wan them to concern mi,care mi cuz of my pblm. i nd a frenz who reali cn b at ur side everytime. no matter u gt pblm anot...will still b at ur side...n also to b trustworthty.

i'm tired...i'm crying nw...so...i shall end here 1st...sry...mayb tml or thur...then update my sch life n my pblm...sry...

2008-04-14T00:11:00.002+08:00

28days...if s according to the time nw...is alr 29days. tml(14/apr)...going sch again. going 4 my Higher Nitec in Network Security Technology. actually,i was happy to going sch soon. bt due to so mani tings happen on mi. i reali hv no mood to study...no mood to go sch. cuz...it lky...i done almost everyting cuz of her. I go learn driving faster...so tat i cn faster gt licence to tke her out...to b my 1st passenger. bt nw...i stop 4 1mth...n even postpone my final theroy test. sch...at 1st....i apply 4 poly....under JPAE exercise...i did apply 4 NYP. for DAE exercise,i also apply for NYP...cuz hpe to c her...or even go sch 2gether. bt nw...cn say...luckly i nvr gt in2 NYP...if nt...i reali dun knw...wat will happen on mi. I'm reali tired....i hv no mood to study nw...unless i cn recover frm tis hurt n pain...within tis yr...if nt...i'm sry...

Jie,i'm sry...i told u tat...i will try rite...all is fake de...tis is the real wan which i wana tell u.

"Jie,i'm sry. i reali hv no mood to study...no mood to do aniting. when i juz got to knw the true frm her...i did reali force myself to stand up asap...to recover asap...bt nw...jie...i'm sry. s said in previous post...last time de mi...alr no longer in tis world...nw de mi...i wun do aniting...juz leave it to fate. i've been crying v.v.badly tis few weeks...bt i juz reali can't stop myself. even eating...i nvr eat again. if 4 last time de mi...i will sure say...i dun wan eat...hpe cn slim dwn...to gt better chances 2 b wid her. bt nw de mi...i wun...no mood to eat...dun eat lohz...i wun force myself to eat....even end up dizzy or faint...i wun care. Jie,i'm sry. I'm sry to all of u who knw wat happen on mi n concern mi. Thk n Sry."

28/29days le...i wun say out who she is also...even 1yr,10yrs,100yrs....i still wun say out. so dun bother to ask mi who she is...

2008-04-11T20:01:00.002+08:00

26days le...i'm still the same...still crying. still v.v.hurt. bt onli difference is tat,the old bryan had leave tis world. nw de bryan...wun care or concern aniting. will juz hack care everyting. no matter hw hurt,hw pain...juz let it b. no mood to eat...also let it b...i wun cuz i no mood to eat...n force myself to eat abit...i wun le. cuz no matter wat i do...even i force myself to eat...the fact is still the fact. wun change. juz wana let her knw...if possible...wana say sry infront of her...n if possible...tell her...to 4get mi. treat it s nvr knw mi b4. cuz i dun wana gv her ani burden or wat...i dun wan. i may b stupid,silly,idoit to do tis...bt i cn onli say...i'm sry. cuz if she hate mi,dislike or 4get mi,treat it s nvr knw mi b4...will happi...i dun mind. tis hurt n pain..is in my 19yrs of life...the most hurt n most pain. bt all nt her fault...is my fault. i'm sry. next tue...will b 1mth le. bt...will i still in tis world..i dun knw...hpe i will. cuz i dun wana let her knw..i been doing silly tings. i been easily dizzy...dun knw...izzit cuz i been losing blood tis few days...i dun knw. or cuz i nt been eating again...i dun knw. i juz wan to let her knw...no matter she reali hate mi,dislike mi...or wana 4get mi...treat it s nvr knw mi b4... or wat...i will continue love/like her...(if possible). i'm sry.

i was crying n typing tis post...bt...dun bother mi. i alr wrking full shift for 4days le...2day off...n tml n sun...wrk full shift again. y...it cuz...i wana numb my pain...bt i knw..it impossible. nvm...

I'm Sry. *same...i wun disclose who she is...so dun ask mi..*

26days le...4mre days to 1mth...bt i'm still crying n hurt. nvm...

2008-04-05T23:33:00.002+08:00

20days le...i'm still the same. bt 2day abit diff...i pretend strong,happy,nth happen infront of everybody. hv fun,hv joke wid them...bt inside my heart...i still bleeding,still crying. i 2day...drink 2cup of wine onli...bt nw abit drunk. bt dun wry...i'm still awake...if nt...i wun b able to type tis post le. tis the 2nd time...i'm drink until...i'm abit drunk. i still dun hv the experience of totally drunk yet. bt nvm. cuz i knw...no matter i abit drunk or totally drunk...the fact is still the fact. nvm...bt juz dun ask mi face the fact...cuz i wun do it..sry. i also wana sy sry to my jie n my best frenz shirleen...tat...if possible...dun care n concern mi...juz let mi gt tis hurt n pain...n possible...dun stop mi...when i'm doing silly tings....sry. v.v.sry.

going to 1mth in 10days time...bt wat m i doing nw. "wrking full shift,doing silly tings,toture myself,crying,blaming myself..." within 1mth...i done all tis...hw abt after 1mth. i dun knw....i reali hpe...i cn faster gt through it...stand up frm tis matter. bt...i tink...i wun...cuz if possible...i wun wan to gt in2 ani r/s animre. sry...

10mre days to 1mth.

2008-04-03T22:55:00.004+08:00

18days le...i'm still the same crying the whole nite. what else cn i do to 4get this matter? my jie..told mi..nt to tink to much. bt hw? in my whole life...tis the time...where i gt so hurt,n pain. y? izzit heaven going to gv mi a test...c whether i cn go throught tis pblm mahz...izzit...i dun knw. i been doing silly tings...to numb my feelings...i been wrking frm morning till nite...to numb my feeling...bt i still can't numb it. y? i reali hate myself...hate myself alot alot. i knw i'm stupid to do silly tings....where she wun knw it...n there frenz who reali concern mi. at this moments...although i nvr tell ani1 abt tis matter...bt my frenz who read my blog...n knw...cum n concern mi. thk...

wana thk peixuan: for concerning mi...although i nvr tell u my pblm. thk.
Joanne: jie...thk alot...always i gt pblm..u had nvr failed to care mi. thk... reali hpe,u r
my real jie..n nt god-jie...sumtime.thk alot...
shirleen: thk u 4 being at my side...when i'm dwn or gt pblm...thk....

it going to 1mth in 12days. dun knw...will i continue doing silly tings...continue crying...or continue nt eating in tat next 12days...i dun knw...haiz...

crying 4 18days...
12days mre to 1mth.

2008-04-01T22:28:00.004+08:00

16days le...i'm still feeling v.v.v.hurt. bt at least nw..i started to eat sumting...although,at 1st...i started to eat...bt end up,vomit. bt nvm. During tat 16days,i hv kept blaming myself...bt reali...in the fact...it my fault. so i had decided tat,if she wana 'hate mi,dislike mi,leave mi,ignore mi'...i wun mind. if lky tis...she will b happi...juz let her do it. i wun mind...although i will b v.v.v.hurt n sad. bt i juz wan to c her happy...i will b relieved. All i cn say nw...is...i'm sry. reali sry.

Aniway...my appeal for my Higher Nitec...is successful. i been post to ITE Dover of the course: Network Security Technology. I hv mesg her...tis gd news...bt she nvr reply mi 4 2days le..nvm...mayb she busy...if nt...she reali hate mi...wan to ignore mi. nvm. in tat 16days...i'm still the same...crying every nite. infront of every1..i still pretend v.strong. nth happen. i willl still do the same...on 5/apr...for ex-hyss gathering.

I promise my jie n my best frenz(shirleen)....tat..i will study hard for Higher Nitec...bt nw...i wana say...i'm sry. i reali can't promise u...sry.

still crying...(16days)

2008-03-28T00:26:00.003+08:00

haiz...12days le...i'm still the same no mood to eat n slp. i reali dun knw y. 2mre days...will b 2weeks le...haiz...bt nvm.

although in the fact...she hurt mi...bt all i can say is...nt her fault...it all my fault. although...she might saw tis post....bt i wana tell her all tis ting. "in the fact...u reali hurt mi...bt...i nvr blame u...i nvr angry wid u or wat...cuz i knw...overall it my fault. if i dun like/love u...i wun gt tis hurt...so all is my fault. u dun blame urself or wat...ok? at last...i wana say...i'm sry."

all this while...i nvr mention her name b4...is cuz...i wana protect her reputation. sry...also dun ask mi...is who...i wun say.

*so if u happen to saw tis post...hpe u cn 4gv mi...sry..*

2008-03-24T23:45:00.003+08:00

9 days le...going 10days in a few min time...bt..i'm still crying every night...still no mood to eat. whatever i eat...i vomit out... i dun knw...m i getting sick le...i dun knw. bt if i reali sick...i still wun care. ya...u all may say...i'm stupid...even...i lky tis do...or even sick...she wun even care/concern mi...bt nvm. aniway...i alr decide to continue love her...nt to let her knw. although i post it here...she might see it...nvm...she wana 'hate mi,dislike mi...leave mi...' i wun stop her le...juz let it me...it juz onli...my life will b shorten a few yrs onli...it ok 4 mi.

i 2day...i go my pratical lesson...1st time drive outside...n nearly get in2 accident. bt if i gt in2 accident...n everyting beside mi...will change or can change...i dun mind. bt no...even i gt in2 accident...the fact still the fact...so...i press my brake pedal hardly...until can hear the sudden brake sound...which cn easily spoilt the braking system n wheel. haiz...nvm...

juz let mi go n continue crying bahz....gd nite...

2008-03-19T22:01:00.002+08:00

It alr been 4days...since the incident happen on mi. bt yet...i still hurt. i been wrking since Last thur till nw...bt i still can't put dwn. i knw..it my fault...sry. i hv nt been reali eating tis few days... morning i nvr eat....lunch...onli eat 2slice of bread...n dinner...nvr eat....for 2days le... and i hv nt been reali slping 4 3days le...i went to bed at 2am+...everyday...until 6am+ then cn reali fall asleep...bt until 8+....wake up le...it means...i onli gt to slp 4 2hrs onli...i reali can't slp. i been crying v.badly....every night. i box of tissue...beside my bed...1night...almost finish...n dustbin...almost full...bt do any1 knw....i tink no1....

i knw....i nvr let u all knw...so u all dun knw...wat happening on mi...nvm...i nvr blame u all....cuz it mi...dun wana let ani1 knw de....sry....

haiz

2008-03-15T23:37:00.003+08:00

haiz....i reali v.sad nw. coz of the stupid poly system n ITE Higher Nitec system. all gv Olevel student 1st. haiz...i nw juz wana go NS 1st...after which take private LAW Dip.and Degree. bt nw...my parents force me go take Higher Nitec....which i alr appeal n ITE juz update tat...the course i choose alr no vacancy...my parents saw it..force mi go change course...which i still dun knw,m i in tat course i appeal. bt no matter wat...i juz wan to take a LAW cert...bt my parents discourage mi. Wat hell my life is? R'ship is alr unsuccessful n it mke mi v.v.hurt. do nt knw wat to do...i juz nd sum1 who r close to mi or even my frenz to...encourage mi...bt NO. NO one. i reali dun knw...i nw began to reali v.v.HATE myself. dun bother me...i Hack care everything nw. I cry everyday,my hurt getting painful n painful everyday...bt there no one knw. i admit...i force myself to pretend strong infront everybody...is my fault...sry,bt nvm... coz i dun wan her to knw my heart is fargile,i dun wan her to knw,i been crying everynight. also i dun wan to drop any tears infront of her...when i'm going out wid her. tis might b also part of the reason y...2 incident happen...when she,mi and our frenz go clubbing....i'm always the one who leave 1st. it cuz,i dun knw y...i saw her...i felt pain...i hold my tears either infront of her or 2gether wid her. bt nvm..overall...it still my fault to love wid her...althought at the 1st place...she mention..she wana b alone...i knw...she juz dun wana hurt mi...bt nvm...s i said...overall it my fault. i shld face it...s tis the fact...bt hpe u guys gv mi sum time to either put dwn the pain...or gv up her. it might tke serveral mths...or mayb serveral yrs. i dun knw. i onli knw...i will try to toture myself,force myself to face tis fact n if possible,gv up her.

i juz wana say SORRY to her. It all my fault to love n like her. sry. hpe u cn 4gv mi....n continue b frenz. even i reali can't gv up on u,i will still love u,like u,inside my heart n wun let u knw 4ever although i scared,1day u wld leave mi,ingore me...bt nvm...n also will lie to u...tat i'm gv up on u...cuz i dun wana b 3rd party. so nw...i hereby...wish u happiness 4ever. Take Care.

*juz dun bother me...i juz wana b alone nw...sry. ani pblm...juz mesg mi...i will try to reply asap...if nth happen on mi...sry.*

2008-03-02T20:30:00.003+08:00

Today 2/march...1st wish Ellen a Happy 19th Birthday. ok...erm...ytd were going out wid ellen n her frenz to celebrate her birthday...also countdown her birthday.

1/march
erm...i actually wana mit ellen 1st...bt peiyun mesg mi...told mi...dun mit her 1st. then ok lohz...tat time...when peiyun mesg mi...i alr outside le...so no choice, go JP play acarde after which...walk here n there...n then..go Bukit Batok Driving Center again...cuz abt 3pm...i go 4 my Driving Pratical Lesson...i go there again at abt 5+...to top up my Acc. after which,i call step...and mit her at Novena Square at 7.30pm...for dinner. after which we slack there n abt 8.30pm...we go fetch wanli off work. and mit her frenz at level 2...after which..we tke train to vivo...to mit ellen they all...bt they haven reach...so mi,wanli,her frenz n step...slack at vivo 1st...after which peiyun call us said...they reach le...so we go mit them n proceed to st. james power house for clubing. i order wiskey coke,voka canberry and chivas. at 12.00pm sharp...we all gv ellen a cheers and wish a Happy Birthday. abt 12.10...step go hme...cuz her bf...cum n fetch her...nt long,wanli n her frenz go hme too...cuz she tml nd to wrk again...n i stay until 1.30am then go hme...cuz i dun reali lky clubing...bt cuz ellen birthday...so cum lohz. haha...i drink so much...i still nt drunk yet...haha...n 1.30am...i tke taxi hme...taxi fare: $20.70(inculding 50% midnite charge). broke le...haha...

so...lastly...
Happy 19th Birthday to Ellen!!!

back to live.

2008-02-26T01:19:00.002+08:00

hey guys...sry for nt updating 4 abt near 3mths??? sry..was busy wrking. o ya...i had grad frm ITE...and on 21/feb..was attending the ITE graduation ceremony. so nw.juz update u guys abit nw 1st...

after my exam on 6/dec...i go straight to wrk at Tuas as an Admin Excutive. salary per mth...$1.4K. bt too bad only 2mths. and then...on my birthday tat day on 16/dec...i enrol for my driving licence...and pass my Basic theroy Test on 12/feb and apply for PDL on the spot too. so i nd to gt my driving licence b4 Aug...cuz my PDL is expire on Aug...and lastly...i apply for Higher Nitec and Poly. for my NS...i gt deferred. so dun ask mi y...i haven go NS.

Higher Nitec application: NOT SUCCESSFUL.

Poly Application: Under Processing

Poly Choices (under JPAE Exercise)
1) Diploma in Civil Aviation (RP)
2) Diploma in Aerospace Avionics (RP)
3) Diploma in Digital Entertainment Electronics (RP)
4) Diploma in Supply Chain Management (RP)
5) Diploma in Information Technology (NYP)

Poly Choices (Under DAE Exercise)
1) Diploma in Business Informatics (NYP)
2) Diploma in Information Technology (NYP)
3) Dip in Banking and Financial Services (NYP)

2007-12-18T11:07:00.000+08:00

Sry guys 4 late posting...due do wrking..

will post some of my memories in tis post...

16/dec...
My birthday...was wrking...haiz...bt still nd to thk those who wish me advance birthday...actually day de birthday and belated birthday. thk u guys...although nt many ppl wishes mi...bt i'm still happy tat, there still sum part who still rmb my birthday.

those who wishes mi...
'Zhimei
'peiyun
'shirleen
'joan
'yuxuan
'xueting
'leewee
'edwin
'jiaxin
'wanru
'peixuan
Thk u.....guys...4ever frenz.

Tag Replies

Shirleen: Thk 4 wishing...erm...i will try to b happy de...trying....
Jiaxin: Try lohz...

Hate my family

2007-11-12T20:08:00.000+08:00

I really hate my family. esp...my mum. Everyday come back home, will sure quarrel...i did nth wrg get scolded. i wonder...wat did i own her last time? why must she lky this treat me? [i wrk less day to concentrate on studies...also get scolded. when i get salary, i gave her abt 70% of my total salary...say hlp mi save...bt till nw...there nth. everyday shout/scolded beside my ears...i reali tink of sue her for physical torture...reali make my ears almost get deaf.] i'm reali tired of staying in this house...you guys know why i choose simei to study...cuz i get to go sch early n cum bck sch late...n u knw y i go to wrk...cuz when i off wrk n reach hme...my mum had slp... u knw...i lky to go out alone...or stay at home alone. cuz it quiet. so hope u guys read tis mesg...pls call mi out when u guys free....pls...

Replies

2007-10-30T01:00:00.000+08:00

Reply to previous Tagboard...

Germaine: thk 4 tagging...tag mi often....thk 4 doing the quiz.
shirleen: sure...when i free...i will tag urs de...yaya...u v.v.gd...ok...hahaha....thk 4 cuming..
wee: thk 4 tagging...and i nw update le...juz tat the post...i will wait till after my final exam then post new 1...
candy: i nw update my reply onli...post wait till after my final exam...
cecilia: relink le....do cum often...
ellen: u do b4 le arz...erm...then nvm lohz....

I will update my post once i finish my Final year Exam...sry guys...meanwhile,u all can tag my blog...when i free...will sure reply...

2007-09-03T18:53:00.000+08:00

haiz...sry 4 not updating...too busy le...

sum1 tagged mi...tell mi to do this quiz sia...haiz...

i've been tagged. aww..The person who tagged you : LeeWee aka god-meimei.
Your relationship with her :- my Kingergarden fren.
Your 5 impression of her :
1. lky to say joke
2. frendly
3. nice
4. understanding
5. lky to b my matchmaker

The most memorable thing she has done for you : she comfort mi will i'm dwn n also b my matchmaker sia...
If she becomes your enemy, you will? let her cool down if she angry wif me. then after sumtime,we tok tings out.
The reason why she becomes my enemy? mostly... cant be enemy bah. Knw her so long le...knw her v.well then others...haha...
The most desire thing you would like to do for her : go out tgt wid her...cuz since we were in diff. sec. sch...we seldom go out le.
Your overall impression of her : nice and joyful.
_______________________________________________________

List out your top 5 birthday presents you wish for :
1. happy family
2. take Basic theroy (Car)
3. new Laptop
4. new digital Cam.
5. meeting up old frenz frm either Pri sch/Sec sch...

How do you think people around you feel about you : dun knw
The character you love about yourself : outgoing.
On the contrary, what do you hate about yourself : soft-hearted and laziness.
What do you want to say to your loved ones : thank you for always being there for mi whenever i needed someone. i will always be here for u all too

~Pass this quiz to 9 friends whom you wish to know how they feel about you :
1. LeeWee (sabo mi...i sabo u bck)
2. peiyun
3. peixuan
4. ellen
5. jiasin
6. joan
7. xingyi
8. sherissa
9. germaine

#8 is having relationship with :- dun knw
#9 female / male :- female
How about #3 and 4 :- both females
What's #2 studying about :- office skills @ ITE West
When was the last time you chatted with #3 :- ytd???
What kind of music does #8 like :- dun knw
Does #6 has any siblings :- brother
Will you woo #3 :- she my ex lei.
How about #7 :- she gt bf le.
Is #4 single :- i tink yes...
Surname of #5 :- leong
Nickname of #1 :- alot lei...'kiwi,weewee,.....'
What's the hobby for #5 :- dun knw...bt i knw she lky to slp alot...haha...
Do #5 and 9 get along well :- they dun even know each other
Where is #3 studying at :- Yuhua Sec.
Have you tried develop feelings for #1:- forever nope...she my god-meimei...lei.
Where does #9 live :- J.W
What colour does #4 dislike :- i not sure
Is #1 and 3 best friends :- they dun even know each other
Does #7 likes #2 :- they dun even know each other...anw..even they knw...they r female lei...
How do you know #2 :- knew him when i was in sec1.
Does #5 owns a pet :- Nope.

wahakaka~~~finished. to my 9 frens, do it in ur blog also.. =]

replying post

2007-07-26T23:04:00.000+08:00

erm...i hv nth to post...so i will juz reply those tags. next time will update my post...sry... cuz nowadays..busy 4 my Final year Project.

Replying of tags

bryan-huii: thk...i will contact him asap...cuz his no...till now still can't b contact.
bryan-germaine: thk 4 tagging...cum often.
bryan-joanne: ya lohz...too busy le...sry...will update asap...when i'm free...

27-29 June Chalet

2007-07-02T14:05:00.000+08:00

27-29June

Had chalet on 27-29 june.

27June

Meet peiyun,Melanie at JE MRT station...after which wait 4 kaixin de train to reach JE n then headed to Tampines Giant to buy BBQ tings. cuz i hv discount on giant...s i'm th giant staff mahz...heeZz. after buying...we took cab to Downtown East de Chalet to meet kenny n leslie n then wait 4 weikiong n daniel to reach...n then accompany kenny,leslie,weikiong n daniel to foodcourt to eat. s mi,melanie n kaixin had eaten at Tampines Giant de Koufu. after which...went bck to chalet room to rest...play poker,n then at ard 4+near 5pm...we wana go play bicycle..bt there close at 6pm...so go beach there slacked....slacked abt 6+...go bck to chalet room...play poker again...until...10pm...n then go mac hv our dinner...borrow $5 frm peiyun...cuz haven go take salary. after eating...abt 11+...i go check salary credit into my account le mahz...n then credit le...withdraw $200. $160 to leslie 4 the booking fee...n then $8.50 to kaixin 4 BBQ tings n then $5 to peiyun. after which went beach 4while n then bck to chalet. play mahjong n poker till 3.30am...then leslie had fever,i hlp him go out n buy panadol 4 him..at midnight 3.30am lei...c i so gd...hahaha...lolZ.n then went to slp...can't reali slp well....cuz kenny kept hugging mi...n i kept push kenny away.

28June

early in the morning...kaixin bought breakfast 4 us to eat...after eating...slacked awhile...go atm transfer $$$ to my mum...n then went bck to chalet room...n then slacked awhile again...b4 going to wild wild wet wid kaixin,weikiong n daniel. while the other 4 stay at chalet room. after the wild wild wet...bck to chalet room...change the shorts...n go 4 cycling 4 1hr...i cycle awhile...n the go accompany peiyun...n then go puy drinks n battery 4 my camera. after tat 1hr...return the bike...n bck to chalet for BBQ. i go bck last...cuz i go cheers to buy wine...n then bck to chalet...saw wanli,stephanie & sharon at chalet room...they cum 4 BBQ onli...after BBQ...i go to bath...n the start to play poker while wanli n stephanie went hme 1st...sharon stay overnight. play poker till3am...n then went to slp....tis time round...slp quite ok...cuz i almost push kenny to the floor...haha...

29June

2day muz checked out le...haiz...but i wake up at almost 10am...the second last to wake up...n then packed up...go checked out le. after return the key...we went to have our breakfast at foodcourt...n the took cab wid kenny n leslie. but unluckly tat...at highway...towards jurong...got jam frm tampines to kallang. so we turn 1big round....frm the time...i reach my hse...is $35.90. haiz...very tired.....sat n sun wrking....le...will update to u all soon...below is pic which i taken...

the wine i bought....

the beehoon...tat i makan on BBQ day..(28/june)

tired...& sad...& stress...

2007-05-29T14:01:00.000+08:00

working
Haiz...juz recieve my manager msg...told mi tat my rooster had change....on sun frm 5pm-10pm...bcame full shift. which is frm 8am-10pm. die arz....i gt exam cuming up...yet lky tis treat mi...die arz...hlp mi...

personal
haiz....last fri...quarrel wid my loved one...which she dun lky mi...n then sat...quarrel wid my 15yrs frenz...n then sun qurral wid her*(my loved one) again...y? Y so mani ting happen one mi???y? they stress...i also stress....i juz wan to relieve my stress....by having a chat wid my 2best frenz...bt end up gt scolded...by them. i ask myu loved one...hw her course...cuz i onli cn choose engneering course...in poly...n juz nice...she at engneering course...i ask her...i gt scolded. then i find...my 15yrs frenz...to chat....n also tell her abt tis...i gt scolded again....u all stress...i also...
although i look...nt serious in wrk...nt serious in study....bt dun 4get...i tis yr final yr. mre stress then u all. i gt sch wrk to stress....i gt job to stress....i gt personal ting to stress....i gt cca to stress...u tell mi...wat shld i do...lky u all...anyhw scolded ppl? if i lky tis...u cn c mi...alone 4ever le...cuz i hv v.v.less frenz. i lky tis...i gt scolded by my loved one....tat i nt mature...bt...hv u been in my shoes n tink...NO....U NVR. u always said...i nvr been ur shoes n tink....bt hv tink of mi? u all gt exam....then mi dun hv la...u tink wat? ite same s pri,sec sch???NO....ok...ite n poly is the same...u all exam...we all also exam. y i nvr find edwin...cuz he also final yr....stress....in final yr project...mayb u all dun knw hw we feel....bt wait u all in yr 3...stress in final yr project...then will knw le...so pls...dun push everyting to my fault. OK...u ask urself....did u tink of mi tat i also having exam...i also stress....i tell u...i hlp u ans....U NVR....NVR NVR NVR.....so u tell mi to reflect...i reflect...on my attitude...i admit...my attitude bad....bt u also reflect...ok...in email...i push everyting to my fault...it to minimize to quarrel...i say sry...bt yet u reply...say so mani sry 4 wat...ya...

ALL MY FAULT...I NVR BORN....MRE GOOD RITE? I DIE...U MRE HAPPY RITE. N ALSO MY FAULT TO LOVE U SO DEEP...RITE? ALL MY FAULT...EVERYTING U ALL CORRECT...I WRG...U ALL TINK TAT ITE STUDENT...IS USELESS RITE...ITE STUDENT NO STRESS RITE...

*every1....who saw tis post...r welcum to tag my borad n leave comment,to say...m i saying rite or wrg...i wun scold or wat...thk...*

New Blog

2007-05-27T15:15:00.000+08:00

Hihi...the old blog i have last time...had deleted. this is my new blog....

do gv mi some comments. thk...